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Thursday, October 25, 2012
WELL THIS SUCKS. HAVE A REDVINE?
Whoa, it's been so long since my last update that my browser didn't even remember my URL?!
Now that is some lousy blogging!
But in all fairness, not much has happened in my life recently so I don't see the point in me updating "woke up, rode some horses, got frustrated at customers, ate dinner on the couch and watched some TV with the dogs before going to bed" day in day out. Not that interesting aye?
The only "interesting" thing that has happened lately is that Agnes, the dog you might have heard about in the blog or on Facebook earlier, got quite badly kicked in the head yesterday. :( She was walking thru the enclosure with me when a couple of mares came running out from the shelter and in the whim of the moment, one of the mares bucked as hard as she could, hitting Agnes right in the face/neck and sent her flying two or three meters. I have never, I repeat, never, been so afraid and sure that I'd just seen something die! Agnes lied perfectly still, with blood running from her face and with her neck in the most terrifying angle which looked like she had just had her neck snapped. She didn't breath, and for about 15 seconds I was convinced she was dead. I started crying and yelling for help, and just as Satu was coming over, Agnes sat up and seemed to gain her breath. Satu set off to the vet with her, and thankfully, it turned out Agnes had survived with just a cut eyelid and a concussion.
Even if this incident ended happily, I swear to God, I never want to see that dog near horses, ever again! I was shaking and trembling the entire time Satu was at the vet's, until she called and told me Agnes would be fine.
So that's that, thankfully Agnes is sitting next to me right now, happily waving her tail at me as a sign to scratch her ear. I really want to continue watching HIMYM now, so goodnight and 'till next time! ( which might be a while again but shhhh, nobody needs to know. )
Now that is some lousy blogging!
But in all fairness, not much has happened in my life recently so I don't see the point in me updating "woke up, rode some horses, got frustrated at customers, ate dinner on the couch and watched some TV with the dogs before going to bed" day in day out. Not that interesting aye?
The only "interesting" thing that has happened lately is that Agnes, the dog you might have heard about in the blog or on Facebook earlier, got quite badly kicked in the head yesterday. :( She was walking thru the enclosure with me when a couple of mares came running out from the shelter and in the whim of the moment, one of the mares bucked as hard as she could, hitting Agnes right in the face/neck and sent her flying two or three meters. I have never, I repeat, never, been so afraid and sure that I'd just seen something die! Agnes lied perfectly still, with blood running from her face and with her neck in the most terrifying angle which looked like she had just had her neck snapped. She didn't breath, and for about 15 seconds I was convinced she was dead. I started crying and yelling for help, and just as Satu was coming over, Agnes sat up and seemed to gain her breath. Satu set off to the vet with her, and thankfully, it turned out Agnes had survived with just a cut eyelid and a concussion.
Even if this incident ended happily, I swear to God, I never want to see that dog near horses, ever again! I was shaking and trembling the entire time Satu was at the vet's, until she called and told me Agnes would be fine.
Agntenna herself. I'm quite sure she's trying to
receive inter-galactical messages with that thing...
receive inter-galactical messages with that thing...
So that's that, thankfully Agnes is sitting next to me right now, happily waving her tail at me as a sign to scratch her ear. I really want to continue watching HIMYM now, so goodnight and 'till next time! ( which might be a while again but shhhh, nobody needs to know. )
Monday, September 17, 2012
Thursday, September 13, 2012
That God damn feeling when menstrual aches feel like giving birth to a T-Rex with very, very sharp claws.
For the love of whatever will make this pain go away, please hear my prayers and leave my poor uterus alone! :(
Other than that, I'm feeling quite blue, will try and shake it off and be back as soon as possible. 'Till then, cigarettes, Hunter Hayes and gallons of coffe will have to try and do the trick.
For the love of whatever will make this pain go away, please hear my prayers and leave my poor uterus alone! :(
Other than that, I'm feeling quite blue, will try and shake it off and be back as soon as possible. 'Till then, cigarettes, Hunter Hayes and gallons of coffe will have to try and do the trick.
Monday, September 10, 2012
WHEN YOU'RE BURNING YOUR WHEELS SOMEWHERE BETWEEN GOING AND GONE
I ams SO sorry for not updating in about a century but it's sort of hard to when one doesn't have Internet here in the woods!
My days are pretty much the same no matter which day you'd ask about; taking care of horses, riding, eating and hanging out with great people with the same interests. Now and then I try to get back to Espoo to meet my family etc, but most of my time I end up chilling here instead.
At this moment my life is sort of, well, very unplanned. Whenever I try to plan or think about the future, my head just starts spinning and I feel like crawling in a corner somewhere and rock back and forth. So moving on, I'll let you know if I get somewhere in my aimless planning of a life I don't even know that I want yet!
Now I want to go back to watching Sex and the City and snuggling with me soulmate Agnes! :)
My days are pretty much the same no matter which day you'd ask about; taking care of horses, riding, eating and hanging out with great people with the same interests. Now and then I try to get back to Espoo to meet my family etc, but most of my time I end up chilling here instead.
At this moment my life is sort of, well, very unplanned. Whenever I try to plan or think about the future, my head just starts spinning and I feel like crawling in a corner somewhere and rock back and forth. So moving on, I'll let you know if I get somewhere in my aimless planning of a life I don't even know that I want yet!
Now I want to go back to watching Sex and the City and snuggling with me soulmate Agnes! :)
Just about the same look that Agnes does when I scratch her belly. :D
Sunday, August 19, 2012
YOU KNOW THE NIGHT GOT OUT OF HAND WHEN....
you wake up with a burn on the inside of your calf. Stings like hell.
Your dad falls asleep on the patio and refuses to get up to go to bed, so he spends the night out like a dog.
"Long live Estonia!" is the catchphrase of the night. From the Finns, not the Estonians.
Your sister is convincing us all "she never throws up, ever!" Morning came, guess what.
Among other things. Let's not discuss the rest of the evening shall we.
I need more coffee.
Your dad falls asleep on the patio and refuses to get up to go to bed, so he spends the night out like a dog.
"Long live Estonia!" is the catchphrase of the night. From the Finns, not the Estonians.
Your sister is convincing us all "she never throws up, ever!" Morning came, guess what.
Among other things. Let's not discuss the rest of the evening shall we.
I need more coffee.
Ei näin.
Saturday, August 18, 2012
MOLLY MALONE'S AND CRAYFISH DINNERS
I'm back in Espoo for a couple of days, and I started my "mini-vacation" on Friday by taking a long shower, changing into something prettier than stinky riding pants, and headed to Helsinki with a couple of girlfriends. It was great, I met up with Siiril in Molly Malone's as well and we stayed there 'till 4 AM, dancing and singing along to this live band playing amazing covers of great songs like Highway to Hell, You Give Love a Bad Name, Dancing in The Dark etc tec. It was awesome, sort of felt like being back in England with Siiri again, I truly had a blast.
In order to avoid taking the train or a taxi home, I stayed the night at Siiri's lace and then got a ride home with her when she headed to Ekenäs with her parents. So quite a successful Friday if you ask me. :)
Today we're having a crayfish party with my family, both from Finland and Estonia, and some family friends so I better start freshening up and drag my ass out on the patio to help my dad set up the huge dinnertable. Adios amigos and have a nice weekend!
Mood of the day; happy!
In order to avoid taking the train or a taxi home, I stayed the night at Siiri's lace and then got a ride home with her when she headed to Ekenäs with her parents. So quite a successful Friday if you ask me. :)
Today we're having a crayfish party with my family, both from Finland and Estonia, and some family friends so I better start freshening up and drag my ass out on the patio to help my dad set up the huge dinnertable. Adios amigos and have a nice weekend!
Mood of the day; happy!
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
EVEN THE SUN SETS IN PARADISE
What the fudge, I haven't updated in ages and you guys still come to my blog every day, keeping the number up? How the hell does that work, why do you even come here?! :D Hahah, don't get me wrong, I'm incredibly flattered but also very confused, at the moment this blog is about as dead as Einstein himself, but blogspot keeps showing me ratings that grow almost every day. Maybe I should keep this silent treatment going, seems to boost my ratings? Hahaha, aaanyways....
I have been incredibly busy at the stable as you can imagine, so there's not much time left over to blog, not to mention doing something worth blogging about. The only "outside the stable" - moments I've had during the past month have been when I slept over at a friend's place over a week ( since my room over here at the stable was occupied by guests ) and when I drove to Ekenäs with my dearest, sweetest, most perfect Siiri. <3 Siiri had the car for a day, so she drove to Lohja, picked me up and then we headed off to Ekenäs for our annual Ekenäs ice cream hang-out. It was great, since I absolutely love Ekenäs and love sitting there at the beach and just talking about everything. I am going to miss Siiri so insanely much, now that I realized she'll be gone for 3 fucking years. Man, that's a long time. Whoah, shit just got real.....
A picture Siiri snapped of me with my phone when we decided to
go for a quick swim in Ekenäs. With our clothes on... at 10 o'clock
in the evening.... in freezing water. It was worth it!
I have been incredibly busy at the stable as you can imagine, so there's not much time left over to blog, not to mention doing something worth blogging about. The only "outside the stable" - moments I've had during the past month have been when I slept over at a friend's place over a week ( since my room over here at the stable was occupied by guests ) and when I drove to Ekenäs with my dearest, sweetest, most perfect Siiri. <3 Siiri had the car for a day, so she drove to Lohja, picked me up and then we headed off to Ekenäs for our annual Ekenäs ice cream hang-out. It was great, since I absolutely love Ekenäs and love sitting there at the beach and just talking about everything. I am going to miss Siiri so insanely much, now that I realized she'll be gone for 3 fucking years. Man, that's a long time. Whoah, shit just got real.....
A picture Siiri snapped of me with my phone when we decided to
go for a quick swim in Ekenäs. With our clothes on... at 10 o'clock
in the evening.... in freezing water. It was worth it!
My life has been quite boring otherwise, I just do stable stuff, talk about horse stuff with other horse people and ride horses whenever I have the time. So nothing worth mentioning here exactly unless you want to bored out of your mind.
My plans for the fall are still wiiiide open, even if I have a couple of crazy.... ideas, perhaps? But I haven't decided anything yet and my time is slowly running out. Woopsie. But hey, whatever, you gotta make mistakes to learn from them and to have the something to correct. or something. I was trying to sound smart but I have a feeling I'm a little bit too tired for that so I'mma head to bed.
My plans for the fall are still wiiiide open, even if I have a couple of crazy.... ideas, perhaps? But I haven't decided anything yet and my time is slowly running out. Woopsie. But hey, whatever, you gotta make mistakes to learn from them and to have the something to correct. or something. I was trying to sound smart but I have a feeling I'm a little bit too tired for that so I'mma head to bed.
Goodnight you all, and keep checking in here, make me happy! You popping in here every now and then always makes my day when I log on to check my emails! :)
xo B
xo B
Monday, July 23, 2012
YOU'RE ARGUMENT IS INVALID
I'm drinking tap water from a spinning wine glass because I'm too lazy to do the dishes and I don't have any wine. Perfectly reasonable.
I'm heading back to Lohja and the stable tonight, so my Internet access will once again be limited. But since I have quite important things to deal with over email in the next couple of days, I have to log on at least once every now and then. I'll try to to squeeze an update in there somewhere at the same time.
Byes and enjoy the summer!
Sunday, July 22, 2012
OH OH OH OH, I'VE GOT A LOVE THAT KEEPS ME WAITING
I am at the moment lying on the terrace on our back yard, desperately trying to catch a tan since I currently reflect the sun. Yes, I am that pale.
Siiri and I had a nice night in yesterday, watched a movie and then drank wine on our terrace 'till 3 AM. I've missed evening like that, just sitting and talking with Siiri about everything until our mouths feels dry and we can't keep our eyes open any longer.
Thanks to Satu, my employer, I could come back to Espoo for a couple of days to just enjoy being at home and seeing family and friends. A big thanks to her, this truly feels like a nice change from all the action going on at the stable 24/7.
I should get dressed and head off to Kauniainen to buy some dinner and maybe some strawberries or peas. Yum, that actually sounds delicious, I really need to get going. Byes!
Siiri and I had a nice night in yesterday, watched a movie and then drank wine on our terrace 'till 3 AM. I've missed evening like that, just sitting and talking with Siiri about everything until our mouths feels dry and we can't keep our eyes open any longer.
Thanks to Satu, my employer, I could come back to Espoo for a couple of days to just enjoy being at home and seeing family and friends. A big thanks to her, this truly feels like a nice change from all the action going on at the stable 24/7.
I should get dressed and head off to Kauniainen to buy some dinner and maybe some strawberries or peas. Yum, that actually sounds delicious, I really need to get going. Byes!
It's so bright ouT here, my webcam can't handle it, hahah.
But at least you get a sneak peak of my new sunglasses!
But at least you get a sneak peak of my new sunglasses!
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
SORRY GUYS
As you might have noticed, I haven't been able to blog in over a week since I moved to Hestbakki to work here for the rest of the summer until I know where I'll end up in the fall. ( no pressure, sure.... I am friggin' freaking out!)
So, to sum it up; I've been working approx. 16 hour days in the stable day after day, doing stable chores, riding horses and stuffing my face with good food in the evenings in great company. I ain't complaining, even tho' I do miss Tallinn a little... And my home back in Espoo.
But you only live once so I'll try to enjoy life instead of feeling blue in a bed somewhere!
And then we went to the Finnish Championships for Icelandic horses last week, to cheer on our friends and enjoy all the great horses of course.
Aaarighty, there you go, some pictures and a quick update about what's going on in my life. As might have realized by now, I am pretty busy and don't really have time and energy to sit in front of the computer that ain't even mine. ( borrowing Satus laptop since I can't connect mine to the Mokkula - wireless Internet. ) So, goodnight folks and hopefully I'll be able to update someday soon again!
( Siiri, I miss tumblr.... Bad addiction showing it's ugly head! :'D )
So, to sum it up; I've been working approx. 16 hour days in the stable day after day, doing stable chores, riding horses and stuffing my face with good food in the evenings in great company. I ain't complaining, even tho' I do miss Tallinn a little... And my home back in Espoo.
But you only live once so I'll try to enjoy life instead of feeling blue in a bed somewhere!
And then we went to the Finnish Championships for Icelandic horses last week, to cheer on our friends and enjoy all the great horses of course.
Blanca's horse Dimma, Ultsi and I at Ypäjä.
Our Hestbakki gang, from the right;
Sofia, Kerttu, Anniina, Johanna, Blanca and I.
Sofia, Kerttu, Anniina, Johanna, Blanca and I.
Aaarighty, there you go, some pictures and a quick update about what's going on in my life. As might have realized by now, I am pretty busy and don't really have time and energy to sit in front of the computer that ain't even mine. ( borrowing Satus laptop since I can't connect mine to the Mokkula - wireless Internet. ) So, goodnight folks and hopefully I'll be able to update someday soon again!
( Siiri, I miss tumblr.... Bad addiction showing it's ugly head! :'D )
Saturday, June 30, 2012
GUESS WHO'S HERE?
We just had an awesome lunch, and are now enjoying a nice siesta. Just watching "Friends" and drinking wine before we're gonna hit off to Ülemiste to do some shopping! :)
Now I wanna enjoy Siiri instead of sitting by the computer, byes!
Friday, June 29, 2012
WHADAPP
SIIRI'S COMING HERE TOMORROW!!!
Sorry about the caps lock but my excitement has no boundaries, finally we can hang out again for more than just two days!! <3
Otherwise my day has been pretty boring, ran some errands before coming home and tidying my place up a little.
On the way home my knee snapped and apparently decided it had had enough. Thank you very much, I yelp at every step each time I try to go up a flight of stairs...
Sorry about the caps lock but my excitement has no boundaries, finally we can hang out again for more than just two days!! <3
Otherwise my day has been pretty boring, ran some errands before coming home and tidying my place up a little.
On the way home my knee snapped and apparently decided it had had enough. Thank you very much, I yelp at every step each time I try to go up a flight of stairs...
I am in no way trying to collect sympathy - points with that face...
( altho' I do look like a 7 - year old, that has to gain me something, right? )
( altho' I do look like a 7 - year old, that has to gain me something, right? )
Oh well, I'm gonna do some finishing touches on my cleaning and then probably hit off to bed ( hopefully ) so that I'll be energize and ready to rumble tomorrow with me Siiri! Goodnight!
Thursday, June 28, 2012
NOT THIS TIME
I got thru the first round to Theater Academy, but fell off on the second. It just wasn't my turn this time. :)
Of course I'm a bit disappointed, but considering how hard it's to get thru even the first round, I'm pleased and had a blast during the exams! The people were wonderful and I really enjoyed myself during my time in front of the "judges.
So better luck next time, I bet life has all sorts of fun stuff planned ahead for me! :)
Now I want to kick back and enjoy my evening with some good food and head off to bed, it's been a long day. Nighters folks!
Of course I'm a bit disappointed, but considering how hard it's to get thru even the first round, I'm pleased and had a blast during the exams! The people were wonderful and I really enjoyed myself during my time in front of the "judges.
So better luck next time, I bet life has all sorts of fun stuff planned ahead for me! :)
Now I want to kick back and enjoy my evening with some good food and head off to bed, it's been a long day. Nighters folks!
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
ME LIFE
Getting a crush on the most inconvenient person ever: level expert.
I should be in sound asleep in bed, or polishing my monologue for tomorrow's exam, day two.
But you are occupying my brain.
Quit it, now.
It's ruining my life.
I should be in sound asleep in bed, or polishing my monologue for tomorrow's exam, day two.
But you are occupying my brain.
Quit it, now.
It's ruining my life.
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
PROCRASTINATION....
1: What are you wearing?
- Pajama shirt and bottoms
2: Ever been in love?
- Yes
3: Ever had a terrible breakup?
- Unfortunately, yes
4: How tall are you?
- Good question... 174 cm maybe?
5: How much do you weigh?
- I have no idea, haven't stepped on a scale in over a year. It's just numbers on a screen, who gives a fuck about that
6: Any tattoos you want?
- Yes, I'd love to have a dove, an owl and a sparrow on my neck, or Rafiki's drawing of Simba on my wrist.
A draft of the Simba tattoo a friend of mine drew for me. Kind of love it!
7: Any piercings that you want?
- Not really. Back in the day I wanted a lip piercing but that craving's gone.
8: OTP?
- Klaine!!
9: Favorite Show?
- "Friends" will always be my one and only
10: Favorite bands?
- Oh, there are too many! Green Day and The Beatles will always be keepers tho'...
11: Something you miss?
- Bloffe... <3 And Siiri, my family, Hestbakki, salmiakki!
Heaven on Earth <3
12: Favorite song?
- Right now, Melissa Horn "Jag kan inte skilja på" and "Saknar dig mindre och mindre." Sort of changes depending on mood and what's going on in my life.
13: How old are you?
- 20. Yesterday a guy at Emperors thought I was 16, I feel old!
14: Zodiac sign?
- Capricorn
15: Hair Color?
- Blond
16: Favorite quote?
- “When people hurt you over and over, think of them like sand paper. They may scratch and hurt you a bit, but in the end, you end up polished and they end up useless.” - Chris Colfer ♥
17: Favorite singer?
-Gosh, that is way too hard! Melissa Horn is rocking the chart right now, she's amazing!
18: Favorite color?
- I really love red, but at the moment I'm going to thru a pastel - phase, like pastel green and blue!
19: Loud music or soft?
- Soft music playing loudly!
20: Where do you go when you're sad?
- Here in Tallinn, I take a walk down to the sea thru the park. Back in Finland, I'd take a walk around Kauniainen. Or chill at Hestbakki, that always cheers me up.
By the sea here in Tallinn
21: How long does it take you to shower?
- I'll stand there until I run out of warm water. I ain't kidding....
22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
- On a typical morning before work or school, around 20 min maybe. ( getting dressed, fixing my hair and make-up ) If I'm in a hurry, 5 min.
23: Ever been in a physical fight?
- Well, I wouldn't call it a fight but a couple of months ago a girl started hitting me and showing my head in the wall. Turns out this girl likes to settle arguments with her fists, hahah....
24: Turn on?
- Confidence, passion and thoughtfulness
25: Turn off?
- Insecurity and trying to act like a stud. Not impressing fella....
26: The reason you started a blog?
- I had no particular reason. I just thought I'd be fun to write down my thoughts and happenings in life and then read it all later.
27: Fears?
- Not making a difference in the world. No matter how, I need to know I mattered and made a difference on at least some scale, big or small.
28: Last thing that made you cry?
- Realizing I was losing something meaningful to me....
29: Last time you cried?
- A couple of days ago due to the reason above.
30: Meaning behind the name of your blog?
- I'm just a silly person, so Silly Bea was short and simple. ( and available, man it's hard to find free usernames nowadays! Good look teenagers of the future....)
31: Last book you read?
- Voldemar Panso's book about acting. Fascinating but insanely boring at times.
32: Last song you listened to?
- Melissa Horn "Under löven"
33: Last show you watched?
- The Big Bang Theory ( it's playing in the background right now )
34: Last person you talked to?
- Craig at Emperors before leaving last night
35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?
- The person I last texted? I have no friggin' idea what's going on there!
edit; I just realized I texted "ok" to Martti last night around 1 o'clock, so that would be the last person. And that relationship is damn easy to define; Martti is one hell of a good friend of mine, love you buddy!
36: Favorite food?
- Home made tacos, hands down! And oven made salmon, yum....
37: Place you want to visit?
- Kenya, New York, Venice, the Maledives, Macchu Picchu etc. Those are the places I haven't been to ( and probably never will ) but I'd also love to re-visit Iceland and the UK.
England <3
38: Last place you were?
- Umm, besides home? Emperors last night.
39: Do you have a crush?
- Unfortunately yes. It's very inconvenient...
40: Last time you kissed someone?
- Two days ago. I'd love to re-live that...
41: Last time you were insulted and what was it?
- I actually can't remember... Quite a nice surprise, hahah!
42: What color underwear are you wearing?
- Black and white ( insert me singing MJ right around now... )
43: What colour shirt are you wearing?
- Grey
44: What color bottoms are you wearing?
- Grey ( I seem like a hoot and a half when it comes to colours right now, don't I?)
45: Wearing any bracelets?
- Nope
46: Last sport you played?
- Does pool count? And I lost by one shot, damn you Luke....
47: Last song you sang?
- "Teenage Dream" while making breakfast
48: Last prank call you remember doing?
- Jeez, it's been so long since my last prank call, I honestly can't remember!
49: Last time you hung out with anyone?
- Yesterday
50: Favorite movie?
- "Lion King" 'till the end of time!!
- Pajama shirt and bottoms
2: Ever been in love?
- Yes
3: Ever had a terrible breakup?
- Unfortunately, yes
4: How tall are you?
- Good question... 174 cm maybe?
5: How much do you weigh?
- I have no idea, haven't stepped on a scale in over a year. It's just numbers on a screen, who gives a fuck about that
6: Any tattoos you want?
- Yes, I'd love to have a dove, an owl and a sparrow on my neck, or Rafiki's drawing of Simba on my wrist.
A draft of the Simba tattoo a friend of mine drew for me. Kind of love it!
7: Any piercings that you want?
- Not really. Back in the day I wanted a lip piercing but that craving's gone.
8: OTP?
- Klaine!!
9: Favorite Show?
- "Friends" will always be my one and only
10: Favorite bands?
- Oh, there are too many! Green Day and The Beatles will always be keepers tho'...
11: Something you miss?
- Bloffe... <3 And Siiri, my family, Hestbakki, salmiakki!
Heaven on Earth <3
12: Favorite song?
- Right now, Melissa Horn "Jag kan inte skilja på" and "Saknar dig mindre och mindre." Sort of changes depending on mood and what's going on in my life.
13: How old are you?
- 20. Yesterday a guy at Emperors thought I was 16, I feel old!
14: Zodiac sign?
- Capricorn
15: Hair Color?
- Blond
16: Favorite quote?
- “When people hurt you over and over, think of them like sand paper. They may scratch and hurt you a bit, but in the end, you end up polished and they end up useless.” - Chris Colfer ♥
17: Favorite singer?
-Gosh, that is way too hard! Melissa Horn is rocking the chart right now, she's amazing!
18: Favorite color?
- I really love red, but at the moment I'm going to thru a pastel - phase, like pastel green and blue!
19: Loud music or soft?
- Soft music playing loudly!
20: Where do you go when you're sad?
- Here in Tallinn, I take a walk down to the sea thru the park. Back in Finland, I'd take a walk around Kauniainen. Or chill at Hestbakki, that always cheers me up.
By the sea here in Tallinn
21: How long does it take you to shower?
- I'll stand there until I run out of warm water. I ain't kidding....
22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
- On a typical morning before work or school, around 20 min maybe. ( getting dressed, fixing my hair and make-up ) If I'm in a hurry, 5 min.
23: Ever been in a physical fight?
- Well, I wouldn't call it a fight but a couple of months ago a girl started hitting me and showing my head in the wall. Turns out this girl likes to settle arguments with her fists, hahah....
24: Turn on?
- Confidence, passion and thoughtfulness
25: Turn off?
- Insecurity and trying to act like a stud. Not impressing fella....
26: The reason you started a blog?
- I had no particular reason. I just thought I'd be fun to write down my thoughts and happenings in life and then read it all later.
27: Fears?
- Not making a difference in the world. No matter how, I need to know I mattered and made a difference on at least some scale, big or small.
28: Last thing that made you cry?
- Realizing I was losing something meaningful to me....
29: Last time you cried?
- A couple of days ago due to the reason above.
30: Meaning behind the name of your blog?
- I'm just a silly person, so Silly Bea was short and simple. ( and available, man it's hard to find free usernames nowadays! Good look teenagers of the future....)
31: Last book you read?
- Voldemar Panso's book about acting. Fascinating but insanely boring at times.
32: Last song you listened to?
- Melissa Horn "Under löven"
33: Last show you watched?
- The Big Bang Theory ( it's playing in the background right now )
34: Last person you talked to?
- Craig at Emperors before leaving last night
35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?
- The person I last texted? I have no friggin' idea what's going on there!
edit; I just realized I texted "ok" to Martti last night around 1 o'clock, so that would be the last person. And that relationship is damn easy to define; Martti is one hell of a good friend of mine, love you buddy!
36: Favorite food?
- Home made tacos, hands down! And oven made salmon, yum....
37: Place you want to visit?
- Kenya, New York, Venice, the Maledives, Macchu Picchu etc. Those are the places I haven't been to ( and probably never will ) but I'd also love to re-visit Iceland and the UK.
England <3
38: Last place you were?
- Umm, besides home? Emperors last night.
39: Do you have a crush?
- Unfortunately yes. It's very inconvenient...
40: Last time you kissed someone?
- Two days ago. I'd love to re-live that...
41: Last time you were insulted and what was it?
- I actually can't remember... Quite a nice surprise, hahah!
42: What color underwear are you wearing?
- Black and white ( insert me singing MJ right around now... )
43: What colour shirt are you wearing?
- Grey
44: What color bottoms are you wearing?
- Grey ( I seem like a hoot and a half when it comes to colours right now, don't I?)
45: Wearing any bracelets?
- Nope
46: Last sport you played?
- Does pool count? And I lost by one shot, damn you Luke....
47: Last song you sang?
- "Teenage Dream" while making breakfast
48: Last prank call you remember doing?
- Jeez, it's been so long since my last prank call, I honestly can't remember!
49: Last time you hung out with anyone?
- Yesterday
50: Favorite movie?
- "Lion King" 'till the end of time!!
Monday, June 25, 2012
ATT OFFRA ALLT MAN HAR FÖR INGENTING
I've been laying in bed listening to Melissa Horn all day, and to be honest, it feels bloody fantastic. I have no work anymore, I'm free as a bird! I've been sleep deprived like hell so sleeping 'till 14.30 was definitely useful.
My entrance exams start on Wednesday, and on Saturday my Siirious is coming to Tallinn, can't wait!! It's going to be so insanely fucking awesome...
Right I have honey smeared all over my face as a face mask, and it's starting to dry so that might be a sign to wash it off. So, to the bathroom it is!
Oh, and I hope you guys like the new header! :)
My entrance exams start on Wednesday, and on Saturday my Siirious is coming to Tallinn, can't wait!! It's going to be so insanely fucking awesome...
Right I have honey smeared all over my face as a face mask, and it's starting to dry so that might be a sign to wash it off. So, to the bathroom it is!
Oh, and I hope you guys like the new header! :)
Sunday, June 24, 2012
REALITY CHECK
I actually hate liking you this much.
I hate how easily and effortlessly you make me laugh.
I hate the way we can talk about anything and it never feels uncomfortable.
I hate the fact that I love the way you pronounce my name.
I hate that I've done some stupid things because of you, but I guess sometimes you need to make mistakes in order to learn from them.
But most of all...
I hate myself for not hating you because of those mistakes.
Because then you leaving would be a lot easier to handle...
I hate how easily and effortlessly you make me laugh.
I hate the way we can talk about anything and it never feels uncomfortable.
I hate the fact that I love the way you pronounce my name.
I hate that I've done some stupid things because of you, but I guess sometimes you need to make mistakes in order to learn from them.
But most of all...
I hate myself for not hating you because of those mistakes.
Because then you leaving would be a lot easier to handle...
45 MINS OF SLEEP WILL DO
Yesterday evening I was still planning on spending midsummer at home, perhaps watching a movie and going to bed early.
Yeah, that went to hell.
I decided in the whim of the moment to go to Patarei prison after all, just to watch the bonfire for a while and then leave somewhere around midnight.
Well turns out, one does not simply walk out of Patarei at a decent hour.
I ran into loads of friends and people I happen to know, there was an Aussie guy playing a live gig and the atmosphere was great despite the shitty weather. And all the suddenly it was 3 o'clock in the middle of the night and I was sitting in a cab on my way to the Red Emperor to have another drink. I have no idea how that happened, but I did NOT plan to stay at the Emperors 'till 5 in the morning and then walk all the way home in the rain. And then sleep for approx. 45 minutes before getting up and going to work.
So today I definitely felt like I deserved; tired like hell and my muscles refused to co-operate. Sure was fun trying to sound cheerful on the phone with customers....
But at least I had a blast, that's the most important part!
And oh yeah, how you like my new hair? Being spontaneous has it's perks....
Yeah, that went to hell.
I decided in the whim of the moment to go to Patarei prison after all, just to watch the bonfire for a while and then leave somewhere around midnight.
Well turns out, one does not simply walk out of Patarei at a decent hour.
I ran into loads of friends and people I happen to know, there was an Aussie guy playing a live gig and the atmosphere was great despite the shitty weather. And all the suddenly it was 3 o'clock in the middle of the night and I was sitting in a cab on my way to the Red Emperor to have another drink. I have no idea how that happened, but I did NOT plan to stay at the Emperors 'till 5 in the morning and then walk all the way home in the rain. And then sleep for approx. 45 minutes before getting up and going to work.
So today I definitely felt like I deserved; tired like hell and my muscles refused to co-operate. Sure was fun trying to sound cheerful on the phone with customers....
But at least I had a blast, that's the most important part!
And oh yeah, how you like my new hair? Being spontaneous has it's perks....
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